First Chill: A Collection of Poetry
by
Brian E. Bengtson
With “First Chill,” Nebraskan poet Brian E. Bengston
establishes himself as a unique and passionate voice for Omaho, gay
men, anyone facing HIV, and anyone who ever felt loneliness or longing.
He celebrates all those people and more in this diverse volume,
separated into five distinct sections.
“I. NEBRASKA” begins the book with images of
Bengston’s state and its people. These poems mix physical details
like streets, buildings, or nature with internal longings.
“II. Names” reveals Bengston’s ability to empathize
with others and listen to their dreams. The people differ as much as
the forms his poems take.
“III. T-Cells” reveals Bengston’s personal struggle
with HIV, as well as with HIV medications. It also reveals courage,
hope, and frustration. This section includes my favorite poem in the
entire book, “Standing at the Edge of the Quilt.” That poem
involves the AIDS quilt.
“IV. Letters” includes poems that literally sound like
letters. The recipients vary from Bengston’s family members to an
author of graphic novels.
“V. First Chill” features the most erotic and
emotional poems of this collection. Even more than in the other
sections, Bengtson keeps the readers off guard and can change the feel
of an entire poem with the last line or two. This section provides a
satisfying conclusion to a book that I would suggest for poetry lovers
everywhere.
Duane Simolke
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Actor,
playwright and poet, BRIAN. E. BENGTSON is a native of Omaha, Nebraska
and has been featured in many national Gay/Lesbian magazines, and
HIV/AIDS journals such as HURAKAN, DAVID'S PLACE, BAY WINDOWS, and
POETRY MOTEL. His first one-act play, FAGS IN THE MALL, was
originally produced by the Crawlspace Theatre in New Orleans in
1991. He served four and a half years as Poetry Editor for THE NEW
VOICE OF NEBRASKA (the state's oldest and longest-running G/L/B/T
magzines until it folded in 1998). HIs first chapbook, entitled GAY. .
.SOME ASSEMBLY REQUIRED was published by Lone Willow Press in 1995. He
now has a new book of poetry, entitled FIRST CHILL (published through
PublishAmerica)
http://www.brianbengtson.com/
Here is a selection from First Chill...
Standing at the Edge of the Quilt
I can see the names
each time I shut my eye
Sometimes the symbol gets soft
at all the proverbial edges,
when you see the volunteer guard
set giant squares free,
while dancing on those off-white walkways
that connect crack babies
with aspiring drag queens
and all the delicate kids
who had to be careful playing outside
with Nebraska farm boys
who never thought
this one time would count.
I feel hollow,
like the vacuum of air
between strokes on the drum roll
when they bring the quilt to rest
in my hometown, once a year.
I close respectful eyes,
and use another bus stop.
In the flat frame of mind
that doesn't see the glass half full,
I question my time to join the tour.
I think of who might attend my vigil
with shaking hands;
how many days may pass
between the crumbling of topsoil
and the folding of cloth.
So I wait at the edge of the Quilt
like the kid in the back
of class watching the captains choose teams.
I watch the bodies dwindle down
and wonder when my name will be called.
- From the book FIRST CHILL: A COLLECTION OF
POETRY, published 2005 by PublishAmerica
copyright 2005 by Brian Bengtson
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